Lynn H. Blackburn

What a day.

Even as I type this, I’m not sure if I can adequately describe it.

I’ve been a little frustrated with myself this week. I’m having a great time, meeting people, learning tons, networking, discovering that while I am every bit as weird as I had suspected, so are a lot of other people!

But for some reason, God has felt distant. Or I’ve felt distant. Or something.

The worship here has been great, but I haven’t felt the way I frequently do during worship. I’m a crier and I haven’t even come close to shedding a tear.

I’ve been praying, soaking up the messages, but still, something was missing.

Until this morning.

I was getting ready and I could feel the tension increasing as my neck and shoulders were tightening up. And I hadn’t even made it to breakfast yet.

I never did.

I opened my Bible, still a bit frustrated with my apparent inability to “feel” close to my Abba during this oh-so-important week, and I said, out loud, “I wish I could just find this Psalm”. I’ve been thinking about it for weeks but over the past couple of days, I could not remember where it was. I wasn’t even 100% sure it was a Psalm. It might have been a Proverb.

I opened my Bible at random, into the Psalms. And just started reading. And then, some underlined verses on the right hand side caught my eye.

Psalm 138:8-The Lord will fulfill his purpose for me; your steadfast love, O Lord, endures forever. Do not forsake the work of your hands.

The elusive Psalm. Right there. Opened to at “random”.

I’ll spare you the details of the next fifteen minutes. But my Abba & I had such a sweet time together this morning.

There was a lot of crying (which is why I didn’t go to breakfast).

But there is also so much peace.

I’ve been so hesitant to say that “I am a Writer” and even more hesitant to say that I have been “called” to write. It seemed . . . presumptuous? bizarre? impossible?

Uh-oh. I’m about to start crying again.

Because I am.

I am a writer.

I am called to write.

That doesn’t mean I’ll ever be published. As I heard from DiAnn Mills this afternoon, God’s calling to write does not come with a publication contract!

But that’s OK. I don’t write for publication or for my fame or for people to be impressed by me.

I write for Him.

I write to spread His fame.

I write so people will be blown away by how awesome He is.

I write.

And He will fulfill His purpose for me.